So me and my boo have been kicking it, fucking, doing what "couples" do for 4 months now but i find myself wanting more with him. i'm not his girlfriend nor is he my boyfriend. think if i cut down the fucking and slow down things'll gravitate towards something more serious than what we are now? Helllllp|
Shietttt tbh I’ve never gone more than like a month and a half before me and dude made it official. Idk four months sounds like an extremely long booty call. Anybody got any opinions on this?
Forget the suffering
You caused others.
Forget the suffering
Others caused you.
The waters run and run,
Springs sparkle and are done,
You walk the earth you are forgetting.
Sometimes you hear a distant refrain.
What does it mean, you ask, who is singing?
A childlike sun grows warm.
A grandson and a great-grandson are born.
You are led by the hand once again.
The names of the rivers remain with you.
How endless those rivers seem!
Your fields lie fallow,
The city towers are not as they were.
You stand at the threshold mute.
Life is happening. No matter how much I try to slow the hourglass down, the grains keep falling and apparently I keep learning… we shall see. And I feel myself getting older and it disgusts me. I’m not even afraid to die so I guess I am afraid of being stuck in some responsible predicament. The same situation all of my elders all fell into and warned me about. Living a free and happy life seems rare in my visage as of now. But I am clawing towards it like a feral creature just let out of the old cage. I am a lover but I am also a fighter, and my survival and happiness seems like something worthy enough to fight for.
I’m such a shit persyn.
I was sitting here contemplating if I want to be a junkie or not; somehow I feel like my purpose is to be a heroin addict and make hella art and music, but whatever that’s a different revelation.
The only thing I could think of were the people in my past telling me how I was ‘too beautiful to be doing drugs’ and how the drugs would ‘ruin my looks’
And as I picture myself shooting up and turning into this sucked up junkie loser I can see myself smiling saying ‘well I never was my rotting shell’
If I ever off myself
I’m buying so much heroin and I’m shooting up to my favorite music.
Sounds ideal actually.
have u ever heard of big smo pls find him on youtube|
Like nigga I shaved my armpits for you. Scum bag. Watch me be mean to him on accident when I see him. God, I’m fucking insane.